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[Nov. 24th, 2009|07:47 am] |
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I feel like a rag doll |
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|08:17 pm] |
I'm happy to have days off by myself ever once in awhile but it gets old pretty fast.
I'm determined to do something productive today... we'll see
Cornfield maze next weekend! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|10:50 am] |
Fall finally
We're planning on going to the cornfield maze on Sunday afternoon. I'm so exhausted lately that sometimes I can barely move.
I'm missing my loves more and more everyday. I feel like part of me is in Florida and part of me is in New York. Life is never quite as rich or full without them around. I've been missing Strat a lot lately. I keep waiting for him to call and leave an ridiculous voice mail and tell me about all the projects he's been working on lately.
School is off to a slow start. The whole thing is so confusing. There are a million websites and I feel like nothing is organized. It's just a maze of links and print outs and 3 hours later you're left with just as many questions as you started with. My deadline is less than a week away. Looks like I won't make it. No worries... I'll just take a few classes and then start "officially" during the summer session. I just wish I could figure out what exactly I'm supposed to write an essay about.
I never pegged myself as jealous but I'm finding myself feeling jealous more and more. It's really not so much over things but time. I'm jealous of interaction and quality time that people spend without me. Ugh it's just so whiny and really embarrassing to admit.
I've decided there is no promotion to be had at work. It's something that has been dangled over me for sometime. There have been plenty of opportunities for interviews and promotions but still nothing. I'm ok with this. I thought it was something I wanted but now I feel like maybe I just wanted it so I could feel like my effort was being appreciated as well as the fact that I wanted to know if I could do it. I want school more. I miss my students. |
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[May. 29th, 2009|12:18 pm] |
My stomach hurts.
My eyes hurt.
I feel like hiding from life and just going back to bed. |
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[May. 15th, 2009|12:27 pm] |
We got some scary and upsetting family news this week. So far everything is going well but that's not to say there hasn't been alot of prayer and a lot of tears. Adam is cheering me up with ice cream and bad movies.
I'm exhausted but sleep doesn't come when I want it. The chamomile linen spray does help. |
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[Apr. 30th, 2009|03:53 pm] |
I feel like such a schmuck. Adam has been at work for hours and I'm still laying in bed. There is plenty to do around the house but this bed just feels so good.
I'm tired of rain and I'm ready for warmer weather.
I need to finish
sewing projects
grad school applications
half read books
letters and care packages |
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[Feb. 21st, 2009|12:50 am] |
ugh
I miss having the internet. I tried to post and had a huge rant typed and then someone sent a picture message and my phone went to view it. Good bye entry. To be honest the picture is really amazing. Yesterday when I was at work the most perfect mullet walked in the door... hot man joy.
(Spang I miss you) I posed in front of the counter and my friend got a shot of me and the mullet perfectly placed in the background. You just don't get as many mullets here. It's just not quite like Florida. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2009|10:02 pm] |
I've been watching a lot more documentaries lately.
I'm just so tired all the time.
I've decided to focus more on school but I hate studying.
I'm dying to go sledding again.
I can't wait to go to the Chinnese New Year Parade.
There is just someting so satisfying about a warm glass of milk with a little french vanilla syrup. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2008|06:23 pm] |
IT SNOWED TODAY!
Ok so it wasn't a lot of snow but it was there in the sky blowing around us.
I think I may actually be a tiny bit homesick for Florida. Well it's not really Florida it's my Florida people. I miss Lindsey and Davin. I miss our married people dates. I would have loved for them to join us for my birthday. Birthdays just aren't right without Lindsey and Danielle. It was just weird not having our joint celebration this year.
We woke up early and Adam made me an amazing breakfast. Swiss cheese and scrambled eggs. He had the whole day planned out with tons of little surprises. First we took the bus to the zoo. The zoo is great. I love the polar bears and the penguins with their very own jack-o-lantern. After the zoo we walked to Reckless Records to pick out some CDs. After searching for cds we went to Pizano's for blue cheese bread and people watching. It's amazing how even working adults dress up for Halloween and walk around the city all day in their costumes. Chicagoween turned out to be pretty bad. They advertised a noteworthy store teller but she turned out to be a chorus member from Wicked that read aloud a book to a group of children with horrible ad libs. It was like she hadn't even looked at the book before opening it in front of the crowd. The had a great pyrotechnic show and it was fun to look at all the excited children in their costumes. As we turned to leave there was a large and unexpected parade of people on bikes. My favorite was the man dressed in horrible work out clothes wtih a bad taped on mustache and a large 80's boom box strapped to the back of his bike. Priceless...
The parade in Boystown is definitely something that will be an annual tradition. The costumes were fantastic. We ended up staying until 3 am. After sleeping in late I got breakfast in bed. We spent the afternoon shopping and bought a few video games which I played while Adam made my favorite dinner and baked a birthday cake. All in all it was a very satisfying weekend. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2008|12:14 am] |
It's cold and I'm sick. Our heat is broken already.
Heating pads
Hot tea and honey
I hate being sick |
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[Oct. 12th, 2008|07:03 pm] |
More vanilla chai and a bit of walking to 10,000 Villages.
Later it's off to 80's night somewhere on Halsted.
Mirah on Wednesday! |
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[Oct. 10th, 2008|09:53 am] |
We spent most of the day wandering around by the lake and through Grant Park. The Yacht Club was having a party and it was great to laugh at all the middle aged people dancing or convulsing. It made me want to go on another cruise. I think I may have Adam convinced.
After a warm vanilla chai we played soccer with apples as children around us chose to throw them at each other. Good thing for me they were all pretty bad shots.
Death was in the park yesterday. Some junior film makers were creating some sort of masterpiece. It looked pretty awful yet entertaining.
Then it was off to the Joeffry Ballet. I miss it so much. It was great to watch the students rehearse. I love to detour past their new building just so I can catch a glimpse of the company from the street. The building is amazing.
The weather is amazing and I can't wait for the leaves to change. Hopefully we'll be able to go apple picking soon. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2008|12:06 pm] |
I've been thinking a lot this week.
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I am trying with all my might not to fall of the earth. I am doing my best to send stupid texts, emails, and dumb myspace messages. I even have stack of postcards and letter paper to write to evenone but then I realized that I just don't have a lot of addresses. poop
Second
I think I hate my job. I say I think because sometimes I have these overwhelming urges to just walk out the door but then something happens. I smile take a deep breath and realize ok maybe it's not so bad. It could be that I was just so comfortable before and it made things easier. I could just go on autopilot and then if I had a bad day the girls I worked with would go out and we would blow off some steam. It could also be that I just miss teaching. I think I need some sort of middle ground. I'm hoping that something will open up in the turoring field.
Third
I think I forgot how to make friends. I'm happy to spend so much time by myself and I don't really think I want to hang out with work people more than I have to. What's a girl to do. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2008|11:41 pm] |
A street performer started to play "Sittin on the Dock of the Bay". I cried most of the way home.
I needed a Lindsey hug. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2008|12:05 am] |
Moving was exhausting. We live on the third floor in a building that has no elevator. I am out of shape. I am reminded of this everytime I come home. Right now we have virtually no furniture. A dinning room table with no chairs, a bed, a tv with a stand, and a small bookcase.
Despite this I am happier than I have been in a long time. The air is cold at night so we sleep with all the windows open. The leaves are begining to change and the lake is beautiful under the full moon.
I adore Chicago.
The only thing I miss are visits from friends. Please come soon we find new and amaing things to show you everyday! |
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[Jun. 25th, 2008|01:23 pm] |
laundry . . .
mountains of laundry
grocery shopping
making dinner
dishes
cleaning
ugh
but today I was treated to breakfast in bed |
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[Jun. 16th, 2008|04:53 pm] |
Only 3 more days of school left. It's scary to think how excited I am. Maybe if I would have had a nicer class I would be more sad. Don't get me wrong I will really miss some of them but I'm just not mourning this whole teaching thing as much as I thought. There is a twinge of pain when I pass the kid section in a book store or when I have a "moment" with one of my students but as a whole I'm just happy.
I'm so ready to move. Adam keeps showing me apartments and neighborhoods he's found and I'm so excited. I only wish that the hookers would be there waiting for me or at least follow my move closely with their own.
Three more days and the majority of my time will be devoted to packing and this whole homemaker thing. We discussed the fact that homemakers actually cook and clean. What have I gotten myself into? I can't really complain though because I'll only have a part time job while he is more than will to have two jobs.
Chicago here we come! |
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[May. 25th, 2008|10:19 pm] |
I'm stuck at Starbucks because I'm to sick to drive. My book is only ok and everyone here is so perky. ugh
The combining of households is going a lot better than I imagined. I came home to my pictures up on the walls and flowers on the table in my favorite vase.
Today he bought the first 3 seasons of Sex in the City. He said it was to prepare for the movie. Inside season 2 and 3 was a movie pass! This means that instead of packing or cleaning we sat around and watched season 1 today. What a great sport. |
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[May. 20th, 2008|10:36 am] |
I love Chicago! Everyone should move there. Really.
I am so bored and so completely lonely. I have another week off from school and should be doing things like packing and moving into Adam's house or calling the bank and changing my name on everything but I just don't feel like it.
Adam's house is his house and I feel weird there. Almost guilty when I move his stuff around to make room for my own. I like my apartment so much better but there is just not enough room for everything here.
The marriage license came yesterday with the proper seals and signatures. It's hard to believe all the fun party stuff is over. No matter how much I complained about it the whole thing was kind of fun.
I can't get past how utterly lonely I feel. I know that when I go back to work I will be missing this time off but for now I find myself reading in coffee shops, chatting with the lady at the bank, and wandering around the grocery store just for a bit more human contact. I know that this could be avoided if I would return phone calls but I know that the second I hear them on the line I will get that knot in my throat and my eyes will start to burn.
Only four more hours till Adam gets home from work and I will have someone to talk to again. |
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[May. 15th, 2008|02:05 pm] |
everything was so fast that I felt like I didn't have time to breath
everyone was so helpful and I have never been so grateful
I don't know how to say thank you |
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